I'm being asked quite a lot lately if I'm excited to go on maternity leave and if I have started my count down. In all honesty I'm trying not to think about it because I tend to stress and feel anxious about...basically everything. While I do allow myself the occasional daydream about birth, motherhood and being off work for an entire year...I can't think about it too much, because I'll get scared. My future is a giant, glowing, exciting, terrifying question mark right now! My life is going to change in such a drastic way and I'm both excited and scared. So much love and exhaustion coming my way.
This month has been absolutely kick ass. I can't pinpoint a specific reason, it just has been. I'm happy, I'm healthy and I'm growing a little boy that is going to be the light of my life! That being said, my belly is starting to get huge and heavy and my low back is definitely starting to feel the pressure from the weight gain in such a specific area. You know what that means? Time to see the chiropractor and to book a massage. I have 4 or 5 free massages left this year and you better believe I intend on using each and every one of them! December is all about relaxation.
I'm feeling positive and happy lately, which has turned me in to a magnet for good things. The happier I am, the better I feel on every level. The true test of my patience and state of mind is my place of work. When I'm feeling low, work really gets to me. It makes me angry, bitter, stressed and anxious all at once. Right now everything is just rolling off my back and I refuse to stress for even one minute because everything will work out. The universe is on my side! When you don't allow the negative thoughts to get to you, good things become inevitable. Even bad situations aren't so bad because your outlook on life is this absolutely unshakable.
The one thing that I truly and honestly need to start working on is meditating. Yoga and meditation have always been key in grounding me even at my lowest points. Meditation is so key to clearing my mind, and bringing my spirits up. Prenatal yoga is a funny thing...I find myself going through almost my entire class with my eyes closed, so focused on engaging all of the right parts of my body and mind. The way I move is a bit different right now, accommodating for my growing belly and less-than-strong muscles, and that is ok! It is very meditative for me now because it is not as physically strenuous as I am used to, which is lovely. I do, however, need to work on meditating daily, even just for 5 or 10 minutes.
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